26 Dec

Christmas Time

Christmas Time by IshtarsKiss
Christmas Time, a photo by IshtarsKiss on Flickr.

There are many different ways a person can leave a mark on our lives.

They may teach us a lesson, give a friendly smile, or acknowledge that you are there.

Each time this happens, they leave a fingerprint. A marking showing that they were once there in your life.

This holiday I have been thinking. Thinking back to those that are still with us, those that have passed. Of Him.

I can still feel their influence. I can see their fingerprints. How they have changed me for the better.

Now I can look upon the new fallen snow and smile.

01 Dec

Look at Me

Look at Me by IshtarsKiss
Look at Me, a photo by IshtarsKiss on Flickr.

01 Dec

Look at Me

Look at Me by IshtarsKiss
Look at Me, a photo by IshtarsKiss on Flickr.

Sometimes at night we stop and wonder are we alone, is our special someone out there. If i wait what will happen? When I first created this image these thoughts were running through my head. Its a cold winter night, what else is better then sharing your love with someone.

15 Sep

Babylons Apple

Babylons Apple by IshtarsKiss
Babylons Apple, a photo by IshtarsKiss on Flickr.

I want to create for a living. To do that, for the past few years I have been attending online classes with the Arts Institute of Pittsburgh to get my Associates in Graphic Design. Before I finally dived into going back to school I had the belief many adults have. Am I to old for this, Can I do this, Why am I doing this?

The last question is something we all ask. Why am I doing this? It’s the question any artist will ask themselves at one point of their lives.

Lately self doubt has been hitting me. Can I finish this assignment on time, why am I going blank on ideas, etc. I am trying to fight this off and have a purely creative mind set. As part of this I wanted to display something I created for class a few weeks back.

11 Sep

Fall Afternoon

Fall Afternoon by IshtarsKiss
Fall Afternoon, a photo by IshtarsKiss on Flickr.

I know it’s been ages since I’ve made a post to my own website. When you are a graphic designer who has problems with their own words, it can be difficult to write down what you want to say. Should I talk about my day, should I talk about school, the topics are endless.

Yes I have been known to rant in the past but it never felt right. I know there are many different ways for an artist to express themselves. Words, paint, digital manipulation, the bounds of the imagination are endless. I’ve decided to change this blog to reflect my primary medium. My photos, digital artwork, and avatar reflect my creative side completely. Any postings from now on will be based on my photos I’ve taken, artwork, even work I’ve completed for my classes.

I’ve been inspired by my best friend of 15 plus years to change my life. She’s taken steps to both improve her life for her son and herself. She’s grown ever since. I need to express myself more as an artist. I plan on doing that and changing my life for the better.

I can’t wait to see what happens.

Please take a look at the attached art piece. It’s something I feel proud of :)

Via Flickr:
Model: Ishtarangel Micheline

08 Jul

Art, Humanity, and the sanity of the mind:

I know I need to update this blog more often. Lately I have had trouble in creating new ideas or creating new projects for myself. I have always loved seeing how one of my ideas may develop or turn out. Since I have started going to the Arts Institute Online, I have noticed how my work has improved dramatically and I am approaching new ideas to create. I love this feeling, but I have also have had artist block for months now. I’m thinking this is also related to my trouble sleeping lately. For the first time in months I finally had a restful sleep and dreamed last night. For anyone that knows me you can imagine who was in my dream. It felt so good to actually dream. It felt like being freed from a prison. Unless you’ve experienced it, you can’t imagine the hellish experience my sleep has been. Nights of no rest, the feeling of being totally and completely disconnected. I would not recommend that to anyone.

I know that these nights of no sleep have affected my artwork. If I am lucky enough to have broken the cycle, I hope I can get my idea flow back. When you are going to an online art college to get your associates in graphic design and you have idea generation problems, it can be very difficult.
I love the school; I’ve felt more alive than I have felt in years. I can really see myself working in the graphic design field or moving across the country to get a position. I am determined to use my talents in art to advance and better my life. I will not let depression or life in general hold me down anymore.
Urbanity Relay for Life event with Maxamillion Kleene

I am going to stand as defiant as my avatar in the above picture. I have too much to lose to fall back now.

Now to the art portion of our blog entry:
Even though I have had artist block, I have been reading my text books for my classes for ideas and inspiration. I think I’ve found something that can work for me:) . I need to mull over the idea at this time, but I need to focus on the main Second Life Relay for Life fund raising event that starts next week in Second Life on July 17th. I am the Photography chair for this Relay Committee and I have looked forward to this for 6 months. I cannot wait to see what ideas or designs will be this year. The amount of talent and hope given in each build really can inspire any artist to achieve more than possible.

10 Jun

What the?

Note: This is a personal blog with my own opinions. These do not reflect the ideas of anyone else.

As I sit here enjoying the slight brake from my homework (current class is very great), I wonder one thing? What the heck is going on today? A 15 year old boy shot to death on the border, our dependency on oil finally biting us hard, the mess in international waters and Israel, it really makes you want to cry.

I know I have had many problems in my life (financial, familial, personal), but when it all is compared to the world at large, you start to wonder is this it. Is that all we as a human race can do. An example of this would be the state of Arizona and their recent immigration law. Sure it will do what it’s intended to strengthen their immigration policies, but the side consequences make the poison more than the benefits. Do you honestly expect that natural born citizens won’t be pulled over because of the color of their skin? Do you think they will be able to show their driver’s license, speak English, and not be thought of as a lesser human? As a human race, freedom is one of our natural born rights. You shouldn’t have your freedom or dignity taken away when you need to call the police for help, your hurt and need medical treatment, or want to earn an education. I am not saying we shouldn’t enforce our current laws, but when you treat a human being as a lesser because they want a better life then something has gone tragically wrong.

Currently in congress, they are trying to pass the DREAM act.  The DREAM act is a bill that will allow the children of illegal immigrants both a path to citizenship and the ability to continue their educations. Of all the bills brought before the congress, this one would help thousands of people. You would think this bill would be easy to pass. It has been introduced time and again for over ten years since the 1990’s. The reason why it has not been passed, “Oh your just rewarding those damn illegal’s for being here and not following the law”. Clean up that last sentence for political speak. When you are a toddler or a young kid, your mom or dad need to support you to make a better life for you. They are desperate because their home country will not offer this to them, and our immigration policies will hold them further from supporting you. The average wait time to come in legally can vary from a few years up to 15 years if I recall correctly. Your parents do not know what else do to so in some cases, they will try to sneak into our country to support their families. As a kid you have no choice, you have to travel with your parents.

Those in congress know this happens, that the children of illegal immigrants are the victims of the system. Will they do anything, who can say? Time and again this bill is delayed or thrown out due to political ax grinding or pure racism. But this is legal Racism in the finest degree. “These immigrants are taking our jobs. Americans First. Why do we have to have these forms in English and Spanish? It should be English only”.

Sigh. I know this is a rant. This is something that has been eating at me for a while now. It saddens me that in my opinion we loosen and lax our current laws to create a version of legal slavery, forcing people to do the jobs we do not want to do.  When they try to improve or create a better life for their children, we want to knock them back down. The current incident at the border has made me want to cry. A 15 year old boy that was throwing rocks was shot down by a border guard. What the guard right to shoot. I cannot say. With the current situation in Mexico with the Drug Cartels taking over, people are getting scared. Was it an overreaction to kids throwing stones with an overabundance of force, who really knows for sure? All I can say is that this is one of the saddest states of both of our societies today.

14 May

My current status of my school courses

I wanted to let anyone that reads this know that I am still here. I have finished my Life Drawing class with an 85. This class was pretty easy but also extremely difficult. I have always have had problems in creating and drawing human beings and the proportions involved. This class was perfect. You learn about the various body parts, muscular and skeletal systems in what makes the human body. One of our text books (The Atlas of the Human Body) is the most detailed text book I have ever seen. Each bone and muscular system is detailed and drawn perfectly. I still need to work on my drawing style, but I have a better understanding on the human body.

My next class currently is Conceptual Design. This class involves the creating of advertisement ideas and learning why certain ideas work and what does not. I have always been fascinated about this subject. Conceptual design is used in everything ranging from magazines, gift bags, or even the end caps at the grocery store. When you look at this from a layman’s perspective, you often do not think about this. If you really think about it, we have design concepts stand out in our lives all the time.

The most successful design I remember from my early teen age years was from Altoids in the mid 1990’s. To advertise their cinnamon Altoids they used a model named Sindy. In a simple advertisement/design the box was simply red edges with a green main border. In the green border was the most extremely gorgeous model I’ve seen. The TV ads were simple and drew your eye to the model but, they left you remembering that it was Altoids

I someday want to design or create an idea like this. To an artist like me, this really leaves a mark in society, where even ten years later, someone will remember your add campaign.

07 Apr

Random Thoughts and a chance of snow

I have to admit, there will be no snow. Lately the weather here in the Texas panhandle has been morphic. Last week our weather consisted of highs in the upper 80’s. Today it all has changed to extremely cold weather very miserable.

My personal life has been very busy lately. My current school work involves a new Life Drawing class. As an artist, drawings have been my weakness. I am able to copy other artist work, but when I try to draw my own images, I have a real difficult time. It feels like there is static between my brain and the pencil. I am loving my classes. It may be a bigger expense later in life when the loans are due, but I am bettering myself to get a much better job. When my courses are all completed, will I move out from Amarillo Texas to gain a better job? Yes. I am determined to become a graphic designer. If I get onto a magazine, that would be great. If I get any type of graphic design job, I will be satisfied. I have found that many graphic designers have told themselves “I am going to work with Vogue Magazine and make lots of money”. That is an example I have seen many times online. It is great to have a high goal, but there are many graphic design fields.

My courses with the Arts Institute online have taught given me an edge I never thought possible. There are many classes and methods taught in a 5 and a half week period, and we will also learn how to apply for our chosen careers. I may drive myself crazy getting an assignment completed, but I see this as improving myself worth.

Coming Soon: This website will soon have sub domains with many more aspects of my school, personal and second life.

14 Feb

A great weekend with a great friend

–Note: This is a personal entry not gallery related–
I officially am feeling old and loving it. My Best friend in the world (I shall use her second life name: Daisie) turned 30 yesterday meaning that this year I will turn 32 years old. She is one of the craziest and funniest people that I have ever met, and can make alot of things fun. Yes when we start talking it can also make a sailor blush (I think i saw that a few times at the theater and restaurant) but when you get to like minded people/artist together then things get interesting. For her birthday this year we got to go see the new movie Wolfman (yes its a remake). I have to say this was a pretty neat movie & they pay homage to the original movie well (the make up keeps the original look but adds so much more to it). Artistic wise this movie is also a very dark and bloody film. To suit the mood of late 1800′s England, blue and dark filters are used along with varying shades of grey. The main characters estate looks stunning and I would love to take pictures there (photographer in me talking)

Later we got to have lunch at a local restaurant “On the Border” and just relax. After 3 months of straight overtime, it felt good to let my hair down. I really love getting to treat Daisie for her Birthday each year. When you live with a 2 year old going on 3, you need to be able to cut loose and not have to worry about having a good time (which she did).

It feels great to get to have fun like this. When you have school, work, and more work, your artistic battery will run on empty. It will amaze you how good you feel getting to relax and be human or be free.

Happy birthday Daisie. You’ve been such a big influence on my life, I don’t know if I would be where I’m at with out your support.